Thursday, December 3, 2009

Home

This is just a short story, enjoy!

Home
I wasn't afraid and I knew it. I couldn't understand why it always ended up like this. Always ended up with me in the dark cold, alone, lost, lifeless. Somehow I always made it out of there, relatively unscathed, physically atleast.

But mentally I was scarred, the scars embedded so deep inside of me that there was no way they would ever fade away. The memories of those days, those horrid days, hound me even today. Though I know I'm far from there, safe and cozy (once again, physically), the nightmares never fail to visit. I repeatedly beg them to go away, to leave me alone, yes, I wanted to be alone.

The pain of living even after he didn't, the excruciating piercing pain of the invisible knife repeatedly stabbing my heart, was slowly turning into numbness. I was growing immune to the stabbing, but not to the pain, the pain never left me.

I thought of those carefree days of my life. The days where he was around, to lift up my spirits, to guard me from all evils, protecting me in those strong, warm hands of his...those days were over. Now came the days when I had to fight with nature to kill myself, to end this horrid torture called life.

Everybody said I would get over it and I tried to believe them, but deep down I knew that nothing would ever be the same. I would never be alright again. Running away from home was an option, but I had no home.

Four years ago from this date I was just another sixteen year old in the orphanage. He, strong and handsome, at the age of seventeen had visited for a school project. We became friends and soon much much beyond that. He rescued me from there and promised a lifetime together, till eternity.

But promises are never kept...don't take me wrong, he tried his level best, but one evening, when the gray clouds engulfed the clouds, an omen perhaps. Just like in any movies the gang of villains came to attack us. But unlike any movie, the villains emerged victorious. My brave hero fought till his last breath, injured as many as he could.

The evil tried to kill me, but they didn't succeed. I wish they had, then he and I would still be together. I escaped, unscathed. I fought against my own life for three whole years trying to find a loophole in nature which would make my work so much easier. But, alas. Nature defied me, death defied me.

But today I'm prepared. I have been planning for a while, to end it, for once and for all. I looked down the cliff and saw a long stretch of nothing. I walked to the edge, opened my arms wide and smiled.

Bending down slightly, I took a leap. The wind was soaring in my face, what a marvellous feeling! This is how flying must feel. I couldn't enjoy the pleasurable feeling for long because I crashed. Usually a person would weep because of the pain, but I'm not just another person.

I felt myself rolling in a crippled position, unable to move. My smile turned even more wide. During the last few moments of my life I decided to think about all the beautiful memories with him: our first meeting, our first date, our confession, our first kiss, our plans for the future. I felt my breath rate going slower and I knew what my last thought would be. The reponse to his last words I will wait.

"I'm here," I said, breathing my last.

I opened my eyes in heaven and saw him. I ran into his arms felt them snake around me protectively. I hid my face in his naked chest. Yes, I was home.


That was pretty heavy stuff wasn't it?? Anyways I hope you all liked it!
Comments/criticisim always welcome!!!

Nidheya

12 comments:

Mini said...

That was quite intense, but good! I liked your narrations, very picturesque, you have a great knack of bringing pictures out of words...nourish it...
The plot could be stronger though, IMHO, good work, keep writing...
will be stopping by more often!

Sofiya said...

Woooww Nidheya,just so wow!This is how strongly moving words can be-this is the magic of writing.As is said,'The pen is mightier than the sword', Im glad to say that YOUR pen surely is;-)

Sofiya said...

Woooww Nidheya,just so wow!This is how strongly moving words can be-this is the magic of writing.As is said,'The pen is mightier than the sword', Im glad to say that YOUR pen surely is;-)

veena said...

Fantastic ammu...am so proud of you...

veena said...

Keep writing...

Suresh said...

Ammu Kutty Very creative and well written. Do not ever give up on your dream!

CK said...

Very nicely written ; congrats Muthu; try to look at the brighter side of life more often.
With love & pride,
Muthan 09/12/09

CK said...

Very nicely written ; congrats Muthu; try to look at the brighter side of life more often.
With love & pride,
Muthan 09/12/09

nainika said...

Good job Nidz,flow of words matches your thoughts.........A Happy story next time Ammu dear!asha aunty

Nayana said...

GREAT Ammu,I liked it...waiting for more...

Tanvi said...

THAT WAS JUST AWESUMLY GR8!!!!! I LUVED IT!!!!! KEEP WRITING!!!!!!!

Tanvi

ohmygosh said...

your great!!!!!!Keep on nana!!!!!:-)